Girls

"I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the lapels. Life's a bitch. You've got to go out and kick ass."-- Maya Angelou

8.27.2011

Ryan at 2 Months

When, when did this happen? When did it go from 2 days old to 2 months old. When did my little guy become a baby who pays attention to passing objects. Who laughs at me and Daddy and Sister? He who is sitting in his swing right now watching the mobile above his head and actually laughing.
You forget how fast they really do grow these first months, almost a whole year all they do is grow and grow.Mr.Ryan the champion nurser, the boy wonder in growth and the smartest little guy I know. Such a perfect mix of Mom and Dad. And best friend to a sister.

The cutest baby brother Rylee could have asked for. And boy does she love him.

"When you have brought up kids, there are memories you store directly in your tear ducts."  ~Robert Brault


It seems like I will forever remember this summer home raising my 2 year old and my newborn.

8.01.2011

1 Month Letter for Ryan

My Sweet Ry Guy,
Your are now 1 month old and I have to pinch myself for two reasons: 1). That an entire month has passed already and 2) That I am now a mother of two let alone 1 girl and 1 boy. Incredible.

My boy you are so perfect I find myself waiting for the other shoe to drop. You sleep at night, usually 1st in your own crib next to Mommy's bed and then after your 2am feeding we snuggle the rest of the night. Its a time that I thoroughly enjoy because I get to wake up with you in my arms between your Dad and I.

Speaking of your Dad, boy you got lucky with the man that will teach you everything about becoming an amazing man yourself. I often wonder how I got so lucky and your Dad chose me. I hope you and your sister see the love we have for each other and how we are truly best friends and partners in this crazy life. Over the past month your Dad has been putting so much of himself into his work in order to better his life for you. Its been harder at times when he is working 7 days a week but know that he is trying to do it now while you are both young so that when you are older he can be around to play and laugh and make memories with you.

Next I need to tell you about the incredible way your sister loves you, I am sure in a few years you wont think it is possible but she is so enamored by you. All she wants to do is hug and kiss and hold you. Every time you fuss or cry she tells you "its ok, buddy, its ok". The bond you are already forming with each other melts my heart and I hope you always love and protect each other. My heart belongs to both of you and I hope in turn you will grow with each other and be the best of friends. I just hope she lets you speak for yourself, because she can talk alot already!

I hope we continue to grow as a family and you continue to be an amazing little boy! I love you!

7.26.2011

Welcome Wee One

July 2nd 2011 - 1 day before my due date and still not a single sign of labor beginning - induction date was set for 3 days from today. I made a joke to my husband and then to facebook about seeing my hometown's 4th of July parade that morning and then labor could start. So we got ready, got baby girl ready and headed out the door to the parade. Rylee loved every second of the parade and I got to hang out with a long lost friend, which made my day! Upon heading home I felt great and had my mind set on the fact that this baby wasnt going to come out on its own and that I was going to need to use drugs and other things to cope with an induction (something I was not looking forward too). 


Well we got home and I ate a big bowl of noodles and decided I was going to nap the afternoon away. Well wee one (or gummibear as we had began calling it, since we didnt know the sex) had other plans...plans that seemed to include coming out.


WARNING....DISCLAIMER...DONT READ IF YOU DONT LIKE BIRTH STORIES!!
Well I went to the bathroom before taking my "nap" and there it was - that first sign labor is coming...other mother's will know what this means but incase you dont..."bloody show". Dont google it, it will just make you sick. Trust me on this one. I decided after the initial excitement passed for both me and hubs that I was still going to take a nap. After about an hour of sleeping it really began...contractions and good ones. WHAM BAM WHAM...
Laboring at home as long as I could was always my goal but my worry was making it to the hospital almost an hour away...So I labored and Rylee played Dr as I did.  It was cute and exactly what I needed at the time. By 7pm when it was time to put Rylee to bed I kissed her goodnight knowing it would be the last time I was the mother to only 1 and gave her some serious extra loving. Little did she know her life was going to change drastically too in only a few hours!
Scott decided to try and get a few hours of sleep also because we knew it was only a matter of time before we needed to go to the hospital and after a 3 day labor with Rylee anything was possible. 
Finally at 11pm I called the hospital, though I didnt want to. I was still fine laboring at home, really I was. Scott insisted because the contractions were rough and getting pretty close together. I called they told me to do what I thought was best and they would see me when they see me. Scott called his mother so she could come over and sleep at our house to take care of Rylee...once she arrived Scott wanted to be out the door, I wasnt so sure about even going to the hospital yet, but you dont mess with a man whose wife is about to have a baby. I swear he was more demanding than I had been my entire pregnancy and I didnt want him to have to try to pick my lard ass up and carry me out so I went willingly. 
12:30ish is when the time gets a little hazy for me, we drove down some pretty rough roads that threw my contractions into a frenzy and they were coming every 3 minutes. Anyone pregnant in the area and want to help labor along I will let you know what roads they are because it worked! 
At the hospital in triage they checked and I was 5cm, I was disappointed, I thought I was going to be farther along since my contractions were 3 minutes apart at that point and off the chart strong. Once settled in our LDR room I got into the labor tub and hung out for maybe an hour, called my mom and told her she could come to the hospital if she wanted. By the time she arrived I was out of the tub, the time at this point is lost on me but I am guessing somewhere between 2 and 3. 
July 3rd 2011 - Gummibear's Due Date...
3:30am I was done with this labor thing and I wanted an epidural, my will for a natural delivery was weaning and I just wanted it all to be over. Our Dr came in and checked my cervix and told me I was too far to have an epidural and I cried but a wave of relief came over me. My birth plan still in effect. She broke my water and that was it, this baby was coming out and soon.
I pushed twice and at 4:06am we had a baby. The time was so important to us because Rylee was born 27 months earlier at 4:06am. We couldnt believe it at all. 
"Its a boy" it was wonderful to hear...one of each...we were so happy. Scott who was convinced we were having another girl said "its a girl, but with a penis" ever the humorous one I was probably the only one that got his joke and laughed. 
Natural birth, no drugs no epidural and I was in PAIN, but my body took over and everything went so smooth and perfect. Ryan Middleton was here and all 8lbs of him were beautiful. 







Its incredible how love can multiple especially when you add another child to your life. Now the adventure of having 2 children under 3 begins. I hope I can keep up

Beginning at the End

I suppose I have to begin somewhere or I wont ever begin at all. So here I am beginning at the end of a chapter in my life. The chapter just happens to be the most amazing chapter my life has had so far : the first 2 years of my baby girls life. 


March 2009 changed my life and life's path forever, I became a MOM. And with becoming a Mom to this precious little girl, I also finally became myself. Who I never knew I was always suppose to be. I was never able to picture myself as a mother, but once I was in it I amazed myself at how great I was at it (not to toot my own horn but ...toot toot!). 


Now with my "baby" being two and my second child due in a matter of minutes I realize how incredible it is to have a life like I do. That, my interwebby friends, is why we are going to begin our journey into this blogging world together, at the end of this 2nd pregnancy. Follow me through the life I live as the Mommy of Two Middleton's (and on occasion three, including my husband). So follow on and see where this world will take us next.